Time for an update. Firstly thank you to all the guys I've interacted with and to those who remain in touch. Unfortunately my disability remains and while there has been small improvements allowing me to be taken to appointments or for lunch, my time is mostly bed bound. This together with my age doesn't provide a great incentive for guys to be interested and I completely understand that. If I'm turned on by a profile I reach out with a message with often no reply. I used to take it personally but now realise that it's a polite way of letting me know you have no interest. I cannot believe where time has gone and what has happened to me. These things only happen to other people. Let me tell you that your life can change in an instant.

My early years was not how I would have wished in relation to being sporty. After moving from Glasgow aged 9 to Sydney the shock was huge and adjusting to the Aussie way of life wasn't easy. I screamed like a baby when taken to the Bondi baths for swimming lessons but soon learnt that if you don't swim you ain't Aussie. Before my major illnesses I was swimming laps either in an Olympic pool or private pool in my building. I became a fitness trainer working in a trendy Bondi gym where everyone wanted to be seen and I was training some unbelievably hot people. I then moved to Melbourne where I secured a job at the Grand Hyatt gym before taking a contract to work at sea in fitness and this got me on a world cruise. When I returned to Melbourne the Hyatt was eager to have me back. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I was fit and I was strong but despite this when I began training in boxing I could hardly last 30 seconds because the technique and stamina required is unique as it is for every sport. This why I have a great admiration for athletes because I know how much training and sacrifice goes into it.

I began jacking off to wrestling, boxing and gladiator scenarios in my early teens and still regard these sports as my biggest sexual turn on. My interests can be anything from erotic to extreme violence either in the ring or watching violent action films, death bout wrestling or BDSM porn. While this isn't every guys thing for me simply talking and jacking off can be equally as hot. When you mention extreme or anything violent many become rather concerned but it's my turn on, my fantasy and why not be honest. I have decided that cyber really isn't my thing. I'm reasonable at writing and creating but my concentration isn't great and I've let guys down by not continuing with a scenarios. My preference is private chat or phone chat. Thanks for reading this much I'm sure if you have you'll be exhausted. Please feel free to ask any questions and for guys who need discretion I can assure you I can be trusted. I don't do any social media.