Knees and Hugs

They say women play the mind games, but men do it too. Ugh, being a gay man sucks sometimes.

I'd love to just have the mutual fighter husband, someone to share in the training and sexual aspects of fight training, but also just kind of be there. A nice fight-honed body to take my punishment and share in doling it out to me while I work on getting my body a bit more fight-honed. I have really good balance again, though, so that's a big plus.

Anyway, dating has been stupid lately. If it's not some random scammer pretending and failing horribly at being in the military to get money out of someone, it's people who express an initial interest to me based on the fight stuff and then slowly fuck off because they're not feeling "it" for the rest of me. My random interests, travel, work, etc.

Whatever, it will eventually pan out. But the waiting part is bullshit. All just makes me want to fight, which I guess is a plus on its own.